Sat Aug 13, 2005 2:31 am
I'm sad due to the fact that my armpit hurts. =(
But I'm happy because I got new clothes! =)
But I'm happy because I got new clothes! =)
Sat Aug 13, 2005 2:37 am
MyleneFarmer wrote:Indecisive. A friend I haven't seen in awhile invited me to a movie. I don't like what's playing, and I hate the cinema she's going to (the parking is terrible and many cars get towed). I dont' want to blow her off, but I hate to waste money on bad movie when I'm on a very fixed income. Plus, if we're in a movie, it's not like we'll get to catch up on old times anyway. Bah. I think I'll flip a coin.
XD. I'm in a similar situation. I was going to watch a movie with two friends when another sort of, um, invited herself along. Thing is, I don't really want her to come, and I haven't even talked to her for a long time. And the movie that I wanted to watch (Charlie and the Chocolate Factory), we can't watch it because sheeee already watched it, so now we have to watch The Island =(.
Sat Aug 13, 2005 3:16 pm
Im currently in the worst mood ive been in for a very long time, several new names have been added to the book of grudges (its best that you dont ask...)
im in a deep-seated depression over an unrequited love (who has just totally ignored me while being online whivh hasnt helped) numerous friends have turned against their word.
on the bright side, not talking to anyone has meant that ive finally got the time to kick-start my painting projects
but im already sick to the back teeth of orange, which plays a vital role in said project.
being one of only four colours im using, two of whcih are only in a small role.
im in a deep-seated depression over an unrequited love (who has just totally ignored me while being online whivh hasnt helped) numerous friends have turned against their word.
on the bright side, not talking to anyone has meant that ive finally got the time to kick-start my painting projects
but im already sick to the back teeth of orange, which plays a vital role in said project.
being one of only four colours im using, two of whcih are only in a small role.
Sat Aug 13, 2005 4:19 pm
Inbetween. Something incredibly saddening happened to me this morning, but I get to go shopping for school clothes and be with one of my best friends for a few hours.
Sat Aug 13, 2005 4:22 pm
I'm in a good mood! Fantastic, even. I swallowed my low self-esteem (which actually the real reason for being afraid of going out last night--thought she was just asking me out to be nice, not that she wanted me to go), and called the friend. Went to a movie together, then she also asked me out to meet up with some other mutual acquaintances at a local bar. I had a blast sitting there talking with them all. And my friend made it clear that she truly does want to start doing more stuff together. This is the first time in years I've felt like someone, aside from my husband, actually wants to spend time with me, and it feels so great.
Sat Aug 13, 2005 5:08 pm
Relieved. No volunteering today. (although after a few days, I have started to like it a bit)
Glad. Going to watch a movie tomorrow with some of my friends. And there's only 20-something days until school.
Burdened. Hard tasks loom in front of me. Switching piano teachers, and some other things that I'd rather not tell.
So, a lot of mixed emotions.
Glad. Going to watch a movie tomorrow with some of my friends. And there's only 20-something days until school.
Burdened. Hard tasks loom in front of me. Switching piano teachers, and some other things that I'd rather not tell.
So, a lot of mixed emotions.
Sat Aug 13, 2005 5:13 pm
Pretty amused. I just watched a really funny anime music video that my friend recomended to me.
But also pretty bummed out because I have to go over to my dad's tonight. We don't get along too well.
But also pretty bummed out because I have to go over to my dad's tonight. We don't get along too well.
Sat Aug 13, 2005 6:38 pm
Perplexed, apprehensive.
Sat Aug 13, 2005 11:27 pm
Sort of worried and unsure and undecided ... 
I think I need to sleep on whatever it is that's causing all these thoughts.
*bows and runs away*
I think I need to sleep on whatever it is that's causing all these thoughts.
*bows and runs away*
Sun Aug 14, 2005 12:07 am
Sad sad sad. Like, routine breakup sad, even though I wasn't really broken up with, technically. But it feels worse than when I was actually broken up with because I'm pretty sure she'll never want me back however much I want her.
Uugh.
Uugh.
Sun Aug 14, 2005 2:40 am
Emotional. I'm fine for a bit, then I plunge it to worry that I made a fool of myself today when I was hanging out with a new acquaintance. I'm so socially inept that I want to scream. Why can't I learn how to have a normal conversation with someone? Why must I become defensive so easily? And why do I automatically assume that I did make a fool of myself, wouldn't the other person have done something to indicate that I had? *sigh* I have the social abilities of a 5-year-old. >_<
Sun Aug 14, 2005 2:53 am
MyleneFarmer wrote:Emotional. I'm fine for a bit, then I plunge it to worry that I made a fool of myself today when I was hanging out with a new acquaintance. I'm so socially inept that I want to scream. Why can't I learn how to have a normal conversation with someone? Why must I become defensive so easily? And why do I automatically assume that I did make a fool of myself, wouldn't the other person have done something to indicate that I had? *sigh* I have the social abilities of a 5-year-old. >_<
XD. I felt the same way before. It's ok... I'm not too sociable either, but I accept that, and I just try to be friendly and everything when I meet someone new. What's important is just to be yourself.
(I'm not sure that made sense, it's around 11:00 here, I'm tired)
Sun Aug 14, 2005 3:01 am
Divine wrote:MyleneFarmer wrote:Emotional. I'm fine for a bit, then I plunge it to worry that I made a fool of myself today when I was hanging out with a new acquaintance. I'm so socially inept that I want to scream. Why can't I learn how to have a normal conversation with someone? Why must I become defensive so easily? And why do I automatically assume that I did make a fool of myself, wouldn't the other person have done something to indicate that I had? *sigh* I have the social abilities of a 5-year-old. >_<
XD. I felt the same way before. It's ok... I'm not too sociable either, but I accept that, and I just try to be friendly and everything when I meet someone new. What's important is just to be yourself.
(I'm not sure that made sense, it's around 11:00 here, I'm tired)
True, but if I don't like me, why should anyone else? :p But thanks for the encouragement. Last night gave me confidence, tonight took it away, so I'm back where I started, which wasn't too bad of a spot on the whole anyway, all things considered.
Sun Aug 14, 2005 6:18 am
Happy, cause I'm listening to Little Shop of Horrors!
Also, I'm hungry.
I also wish I could use my LiveJournal mood theme on this topic, but alas, I cannot.
Also, I'm hungry.
I also wish I could use my LiveJournal mood theme on this topic, but alas, I cannot.
Mon Aug 15, 2005 12:10 am
MyleneFarmer wrote:True, but if I don't like me, why should anyone else?
That's why you should learn to like yourself
. I know I dooo =P.
Todayy, I'm feeling energetic... ish... nothing much really happened today, but I'm just feeling content overall. I really need to go somewhere and get hyper, though, XD.