Tymaporer wrote:
Panic has taken root in the core of my soul. I'm haunted by everything, ranging from stupid things that would barely be a problem otherwise, to my sometimes-uncontrollable runaway imagination forcing me to watch horrible things happen, to the problems in others' lives that are more substantial than mine, to life in general. I want it to stop. Make it stop. I don't like feeling like this. I keep feeling sick too, whenever I feel these freaky feelings, I feel sick...it's like every little thing sparks either complete panic or that horrible haunted feeling. I feel so helpless all the time, like I have no control over anything, which is true of the things that are bothering me, so therefore it feels like everything, I guess. Sometimes stuff feels kind of surreal, like it's some clouded, unfamiliar world, and I'm in it, and I know it's my life, but it's kind of not, y'know?
I need to shut up now. I always go on and on about stuff. I don't mean to depress, annoy, or otherwise unhappy-ify anyone reading this...I gotta go...*runs off*
Tyma sums up and concludes exactly how i feel.
My imagination though cant seperate between reality so I dont know if this is all a dream or not........I cant even tell if a dream is real or not. Why do I feel so confused?